Stop sucking the life out of me & my cure for Morose..

Los Angeles city of dreams and failed ambitions. Its the place people come to become something else,but most just seem to never make it. I remember thinking how glamorous a place Hollywood must be. Ever so iconic. In reality its dirty and down and dirty. People talking about themselves and finding out what you can do for them.

Well that’s a part of it. I have been here for 11 years now. Mostly keeping to myself and doing things that make me happy. Being creative and trying to always be the same person i was before i moved here. For the most part i am.

Hello, my name is Jessica and i am one of those glass 1/2 full types pretty positive and a problem solver. If things go bad i look for the bright side. Some times i have anxiety and cannot fall asleep.

I’m a Sagittarius and was born in the year of the rat. I grew up in the 70’s & 80’s which i vote are much better than the 90’s & 00’s

I have found a few ways to deal with this city. I don’t give a fuck what people think about how i look or what i do (which really is be a hermit , work and go to art events), I live and speak and act as i would like others to do for me. I don’t believe in allot of bullshit. I was raised by an east coast mom, zero tolerance for behind your back maneuvers.

I found the places here that make me feel comfortable, and people i can relate with.

I smile and say hello to strangers that pass by and compliment others when i appreciate them.

I don’t take myself to seriously and feel lucky i can be creative and work for myself.

The energy of this city makes me feel drained and morose some times so much that i have to just leave for a few days and reset. Generally that means I’m going back to Santa Cruz or the bay area because that is where i left my heart.

My best friend Angelique took me out to dinner tonight and we are going on an adventure at the end of the month.  We have been friends since high school and she is a classy lady.

Its Saturday night and I’m going to bed.