This weeks Rant comes from the heart
Visiting the Jasper Johns retrospective at The Broad
I feel like I’ve been on such a long slow moving pathway that finally leads me to this point. I have worked almost everyday for the past sixteen years including weekends and holidays. Trying my very best to be creative, self-sufficient and productive.
I started Jessica Louise clothing out of a desire to create clothing for myself and friends that I had been imagining. Beginning sewing at a very young age with no education or formal fashion training I kept moving forward learning by experience all these years. Looking back at my past work I laugh sometimes , seeing the evolution from then to now is very much like night to day.
Feeling accomplished seeing the progression, my skill level as a designer and as a sewer has even just in the past year reached levels I did not ever really consider before this exact moment as I write this now.
I decided in January I needed discipline and had been feeling distressed, unsure where I should go next or if I even wanted to go any further in my current career. Depression for me has always been a challenge. Generally it has led to various life changes, this time it motivated me to continue my education specifically concentrating on formal fashion knowledge for the very first time.
I’m in the process of learning mens tailoring and pattern making so in a about a year I hope to have certification in this field and be able to apply it and expand my womenswear design and be more excellent expanding my freelance work and be able to do more one of a kind custom and complicated projects.
After that I plan on finishing my BFA which because of life circumstances I was never able to complete, which used to bother me less than it does now.
I realize I’m still recovering from the past year and a half. Still reconfiguring my business and adapting to the way the world currently works and how people react to and treat each other now.
Even though I keep my head down and try my best to stay on my path, life feels like an abusive circus at times and it’s hard to shake off troubles and difficult situations they way I used to. I’ve been absorbing instead of deflecting and its throwing me completely off.
However, I feel as always a constant need and compulsion to create. Irrespective if it is well received or considered by anyone at all.
The point of being an artist is to produce work regardless if anyone is paying attention.
That is my rant for the week.
Lots of love,
I made a few things this past week and photographed them on my beautiful perfect friend Jacqui who I am so grateful to have in my life AND we realized while doing this shoot we had been friends and she has been modeling for me for 10 years! Wow time really does fly now doesn’t it…