DJ AM .Crack really?

Like Totally.

Awesome alright like totally freak me out i mean right on. I love Bring it on. Non related to this post however. I live and was born and raised in California. Here people say the work LIKE allot. Some more than others. “You know i was like on my way to get a coffee and he ran right over my toe, like how rude is that?”
Well besides it making many Californians sound as if they all came from the Valley in the 80′s as my friend Stacy once said to me ” can you try not to say the work like so much it makes you sound dumb”
I do try to catch and stop myself from using that accursed word that so easily fits in as a substitute for the proper word when you cannot think of what that should be, or are just to lazy to think about it for that millisecond before it comes out of your mouth.
This week all my fellow Californians who are guilty of abusing the word like.
Try to keep it out of conversation you will see how much you use it.

Twitter such bullshit..

Ok i am a victim of online social networks like everybody else i have myspace, facebook, blog blah blah blah.

Twitter?

A. I am not so important that every mundane detail of my life should be recorded and transmitted out to the world multiple times a day..

B. If they talk about something on the news and every tv show’s  everyday its bullshit and already passe.

Here’s a novel thought maybe actually take the time to write a letter or call people every once in a while instead of living your whole life online only.

Rant Rant rant.

I was up till 7:30 am working on graphics and got a 3 hour nap so i am feeling very punchy.

One woman twitter protest.

Examples of possible twitters :
i picked my nose in traffic today on the way home.
Im eating a cheeseburger on my couch.
My cat hates me.
I jerked off in the shower.

Postage went up what a drag.

Donkey porn is on TV.
Theres too many insignificant things going on all day time to read about them all would give me a headache. But then i am not a fan of IM either not even AOL when it first came out.

Small talk is not one of my favorite things to do, although i am quite skilled at it.

Im on a boat motherfucker dont you ever forget.

loosing time & Spiderman we all see your balls and thats gross….

It seems like time just flys by. I get to work and before i know it it is already after 8 and its time to go home. Maybe its im just feeling like i have not accomplished enough by the end of the day. Or as soon as i am just about to catch up i have another project or 20 things to sew extra.
Well at least i am keeping constantly busy and am happy and well pretty much all the time.
The happiness part adds to my general health and clear head.
I love bike and train rides to and from work lately. Its a bit surreal living in Hollywood sometimes. My station is Hollywood/Highland and its funny seeing all those people who dress up like characters. There is a Jesus who is very Jesusy and tonight a guy who i am guessing was trying to be a transformer but it just looked like he just made a suit of garbage.
And then there is the random girls who just look like they are wearing slutty Halloween costumes ” hey slutty cop whats your deal?” or the creepy Spiderman who wears a fanny pack sometimes and you can always see the shape of his balls which is not appealing whatsoever.

Thanks for ruining my childhood love of spiderman dude.

Stop sucking the life out of me & my cure for Morose..

Los Angeles city of dreams and failed ambitions. Its the place people come to become something else,but most just seem to never make it. I remember thinking how glamorous a place Hollywood must be. Ever so iconic. In reality its dirty and down and dirty. People talking about themselves and finding out what you can do for them.

Well that’s a part of it. I have been here for 11 years now. Mostly keeping to myself and doing things that make me happy. Being creative and trying to always be the same person i was before i moved here. For the most part i am.

Hello, my name is Jessica and i am one of those glass 1/2 full types pretty positive and a problem solver. If things go bad i look for the bright side. Some times i have anxiety and cannot fall asleep.

I’m a Sagittarius and was born in the year of the rat. I grew up in the 70′s & 80′s which i vote are much better than the 90′s & 00′s

I have found a few ways to deal with this city. I don’t give a fuck what people think about how i look or what i do (which really is be a hermit , work and go to art events), I live and speak and act as i would like others to do for me. I don’t believe in allot of bullshit. I was raised by an east coast mom, zero tolerance for behind your back maneuvers.

I found the places here that make me feel comfortable, and people i can relate with.

I smile and say hello to strangers that pass by and compliment others when i appreciate them.

I don’t take myself to seriously and feel lucky i can be creative and work for myself.

The energy of this city makes me feel drained and morose some times so much that i have to just leave for a few days and reset. Generally that means I’m going back to Santa Cruz or the bay area because that is where i left my heart.

My best friend Angelique took me out to dinner tonight and we are going on an adventure at the end of the month.  We have been friends since high school and she is a classy lady.

Its Saturday night and I’m going to bed.

Backwards Glances, & favorite 80′s Punk shows

The things you find while looking for other things. I used to live to go see music. Was a record collector and pretty much cared for little else. To me my bad memory was always filled in by seconds in time where i was listening to whatever song was playing in the back round of my youth’s soundtrack.

I lived in Santa Cruz growing up. And started going to shows at the farm in San Francisco by time i was 12-13 Best show ever 1984(im pretty sure it was that year) Bad Brains @ the farm.  My best friend at the time had a mom who did not mind leaving 12 year old at the sketchy punk club in the middle of nowhere San Francisco.

She also was a mom who would offer massages to our guy friends and slip them qualudes. A whole other story indeed.

We also had a kind of radical punk club in Santa Cruz for a while too actually club culture and then there was always Gilman, which was kind of far i only really went there for shows a few time until i moved to San Francisco years later during the early AFI, Rancid days.

I look back an maybe relize a little why i dont go out as much. Its not the same really.

Shows are so different & the kids are very different.

My sub culture and the sub culture of today is a stark contrast in comparison.

Anyway rant rant rant, i found these ticket stubs while searching for paperwork. All four shows were fantastic.

Ill take a Cheeseburger cake please & rabbits whos faces fall off before easter.

Jessica what shape of cake should i randomly bring you? Oh ill take cheeseburger & fries please.

Well if you ever do need a cheeseburger cake go to Gelsons on Santa Monica they will make you one.

I have appreciation for creative baked goods. And things that look creative and make you feel good in general.

Especially lately. It gets to be so depressing everyday when you turn on the news ALL bad, i don’t want to hear about how bad the economy is. I am very aware.

One mention of whats going on overseas in our war?, never. I should be used to that by now.

I had a no news policy for so long and then got obsessed during the campaigning & election that i forgot it mostly just makes me have anxiety.

I know its not probably the most intelligent move but im going back to the my ignorance is bliss bubble.

Its must be sad to be a chocolate easter rabbit and weeks before easter your face has already fallen off still in the box.

This weekend. I am catching up and being a complete hermit.

Whats everyone else doing?

There is a group show Saturday i posted in the news in case anyone in LA is looking for something to do.

Vacuum Boner

Holy crap just when you thought you’d heard it all. If you cant get a boner order the handy Pos-T-Vac and vacuum up your self one.

TV is already garbage but commercial ads for vacutherapy for erectile disfunction really takes the cake. Its worse than the yeast infection commercials esp the interviews with the creepy wooden toothed merkin mustache men.

And $550 REALLY im sure the penis pump from the local shop de boudoir would be much more cost effective . In fact it really looks like the same thing. Anyone looking for post t vac go to a sex shop first and check out what they have.

You might be getting ripped off because of your dysfunction.

In fact i really think this looks like a rip off. If you want advice from a 36 year old woman. Sex shop, vitamins, eat healthier, exercise = awesome boner

Well i dont have a penis so i dont have any idea what devices men need or do not need it just really made me laugh when that commercial came on.

Walking through the past and straight into the future.

This.

Ive always been in the mindset of letting the bad things of the past stay in the past and work for a better future with lessons learned. Sometimes is hard not to get pissed off and resentful but really whats the point?

Stress causes cancer and illness i’m not interested in either of those in my life for as long as i can avoid them.

blahhhhhhhhh …

I read the newspaper today and it made me happy. There were actually positive things to report, how unusual. huh.

OK im off to bed i feel a bit morose.

Family is what you make it.

Felling nostalgic for my home town after spending a few days over the holiday made me really think about my family and what family means to me.
I am the person I am because of my mother and my extended family.
I was raised by an eclectic band of incredible creative people.
People who surrounded me while I grew up and who are still in my life to this day.
I was encouraged to be my own person and to make my own path in life.
I was raised by a single mother and abandoned by my father as baby.
My mother’s family lived (and still does lives) on the East Coast.
My father’s family, aside from two people made me feel like a ghost my whole life.
Never good enough or just not quite there at all.
Sometimes its just a few people that make your life special and maybe allot of the time they are not even related to you.
I am grateful for the small family I do have.
For having the most wonderful grandfather for the time he was here on earth.
And to my Sean and wonderful pets for making me smile most of the day everyday.
This year I am going to make sure the people in my life I appreciate all know how much I love them.
That’s all for now.
I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas. I am looking forward to a new year.

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